im missing finger prints on 3 finger of my right hand
|society: oh you have your period? well you have two options.|
|society: you can use sanitary pads, which make you feel like you are wearing a diaper, and have the added fun benefit of being extremely uncomfortable and give you the extreme paranoia that they will not be enough coverage and at any moment with any movement or sudden sneeze you'll bleed over onto your clothes and walk around all day with blood stained trousers while everyone points and laughs at you.|
|woman: sounds awful. what's my second option.|
|society: a penis shaped wad of cotton that you shove uncomfortably inside yourself and it catches the blood before it leaves your body.|
|woman: still seems pretty awful.|
|society: wait! it gets better! there's the outside chance that using those will kill you!|
|woman: well, are they at least free? like how men can have access to free condoms? i mean, it's not like i'm choosing for this to happen.|
|society: HAHAHA! that's funny. no, you have to pay for them. and they're really fucking expensive.|
|society: oh, and if you tell anyone that you ARE on your period, your judgement, opinions, and reactions are going to be dismissed as the crazy ramblings of a lunatic.|
|woman: i think i'll go with my third option.|
|society: what third option?|
|woman: i think i'll bleed on everything you love.|
- Jose Mujica
Im so in love with my studio. I wish i could take it anywhere…
Do you usually sleep with your closet door open or closed? Whatever
Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotels? No
Where is your next vacation? Hopefully nyc
Who do you think reads these? No one
Do you have a calendar in your room? No
What’s your plan for the day? Night, sleep
Are you reading any books right now? When talent isnt enough, 1984
Do you ever count your steps when you walk? No
Do you ever dance even if there’s no music playing? Yes
Do you chew your pens and pencils? No
What is your “Song of the Week”? Bound 2, and all by benjamin clementine
Is it okay for guys to wear pink? This is stupid
Do you still watch cartoons? yes
What do you drink with dinner? Water, coffe, tea or wine
What do you dip Chicken Nuggets in? Vegetarian
What is your favorite food/cuisine? Thai
What movies could you watch over and over and still love? Hedwig and the angry inch, layer cake, james bond, the hangover
When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper? A month ago
Can you change the oil on a car? I just drive
Best thing to eat for breakfast? Eggs or goat yogurt with fruits and almonds and honey
What is your usual bedtime? 12ish
Are you lazy? No
Afraid of heights? Kinda
Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? Make up artist, astronaut, cashier, vet
Hot tea or cold tea: hot
Tea or coffee? Coffee
Favorite kind of cookie? Hate cookies, prefer crackers
Can you swim well? Just to save my life and probs for like 15 min
Can you hold your breath w/o manually holding your nose? Yes
Everything is harder and gets harder every day.
I cant seem to find the good things down here.
Once a week my ideals colapse
I question myself about what i want… what am i doing…
Is what i want an illusion of society?
Is what i’m doing so irrelevant?
Why do i want the recognition?
I spent all of my teens fighting this ideas, the ones the others believe,
Grow up and be successful, what is that anyway?
Ive been called a loser by my own self a thousand times
I just want to be happy in a specific moment at a certain place
Is what i believe right now, it might change, it might fail.
Im waiting for the fall,
Am i even moving forward?
Sometimes i feel i went back 20 years in the last 6 months.
I have mini depressions i can temporarily fix.
The feeling of missing streets, faces, places, drinks,
I had never ever felt before, is lingering,
Is this all the context of my own destiny?
I dont know, i dont know.